Of Classical

Been hooked up with classics lately, not classical love songs, but classical pieces from Chopin & Debussy, Concertos by Mozart, etc. Somehow I am seeing melody as flow of life, from the highest pitch of notes, to the lowest bass of strings...and the emotions of the conductor, taking over the stage like indulging themselves being one with the piece, I wonder how that feels...

Life's not?
How does being one with life really feels like?
There must be zillions of answers out there to the above question...
Yet people like me are still trying to suit oneself to each answer, to each note, to each piece, to be able to conduct one's own stage of life~
How many had achieved such goal?

On stage, a conductor controls how the piece supposed to be played...
In life, you control how your life flows...

On stage, the assembly of musicians understands every move the conductor made...
In life, the person who adore you most are the one who understands the reason behind everything you do...

On stage, the cooperation between the musicians and the conductor is the main recipe towards a successful orchestra played...
In life, without cooperation and understanding, you simply can't achieve everything, you just can't do it, it's like a crumbled cake out from the oven, for the absence of understanding of time-control...

For those who aren't able to understand the conductor, he/she will destroy a wonderful piece created...
For those who have friends assuming they know you, judge you, change you, they are just another passer by. And never let a passer by affect how you want to conduct your life, for you are the one who knows yourself best, for how are you suppose for others to understand you if you do not?

A conductor's dream is to be able to lead an orchestra perfectly, preferably a piece from a re-known conductor, or a piece created by themselves...
Similarly, we have our own dreams, and our dreams are the one motivation that keeps us alive, keeps us going, keeps us fighting for whatever there is, be it a right, a job, an application, a place in the society, a terminal illness!

Ludwig van Beethoven, a name familiar to most of us, a pianist, a conductor, a performer, who gradually became deaf when he turned famous. Yet he had a dream that motivated him to continue doing what he was doing, finding alternatives to enhance his sound perception, to further pursue his dream - Music...when he was totally deaf, although he was unable to perform or conduct anymore, there was still one things he could do, to pass on his legacy through discussions and thoughts on music, on how should it be played, towards his disciples, and other musicians through written communication, until he died...

And so I was wondering, what if I had an illness, or a tragedy, any events later in my life that would make me disabled, or only having few years, months or even days to live on...will I give up or will I do something in my remaining days to live when my dream have yet to be achieved?

To me,

To live a life, is to live a dream;

a life without a dream, is a life of "blank"

I would definitely want to fight my life, sustain life, and achieve what I was born for, for it was why I lived on for this many years, wouldn't it be a waste if I was just to give up, complain, whine, and try to commit suicide just to end suffering?

It will definitely be a waste, but how far can I fight on is still a maze, for what I need to fight with, is still a question to be answered...

So, what next?

-metamorphosis-

An End . An Update

1, 2, 3, 4, 5... 6 , 7, 8, 9, 10...

I'm blur

I'm not tired, but I'm senseless

I do not understand

I am confused

I am not frustrated, but am annoyed

A lot of events had occur during this 2 months, emotions had been poured out every now and then.

Learnt a lot about myself,

Learnt a lot about others

Learnt a lot about things

Learnt a lot about procedures

Learnt a lot about expectations

Learnt a lot about assumptions

Learnt a lot about relationships

Learnt a lot about leadership

and the list goes on...

Project Ryders was another baby I've gave birth to after HELP Career Fair 08. It was an idea of charity and cycling, where the team are to cycle from KL to Langkawi and back, for a total of 1140km, and raising funds and pledges along the way. Though I do learn a abit of here and there during the whole journey, overall, it was a disappointment for me. If anyone ask me, which stage of the whole event that I enjoyed and had fun, I will answer them, " Definitely the preparation stage! "

You may ask why?

During preparation process, it was the chance where I am able to work with both committed and responsible people, people where I enjoyed working with, they were not just icings on a cake, they are the one who made the base of the cake with me, the gem, the core, the whatever! I'm an efficient person, If I don't get work done on time, I'll feel extremely uncomfortable. Thus, thanks to Siyan and Catherine especially, it was a pleasure working with them, and it was because of them, Project Ryders was delivered, started and ended. Of course, not forgetting others who helped, you know who you are. On other stage, nothing much to tell, as I said, dissapointed...

Moving on, I'm in a new semester now, 3rd year 2nd sem, exactly 8 more months before I unofficialy graduate from my degree. Taking up PSY 215, PSY 305 and PSY 309, while doing my thesis's experiment, it is not as hectic as before, though all classes were cramped into 1 single Thursday. Due to that 1 day class, I thought of taking up a job, or internship to not waste my time, as I want both money and experience, in preparation for my graduation.

Searching, looking, scouting, and finding...

Not knowing why, I was afraid of taking up any part time job whenever I came upon those that I'm interested in, after effects of the event? Needing an adjustment time? these were what others said...I wonder...

Monday, a surprised offer came to me from a friend that I knew for 3 years. He offered me a job where it was too attractive for me to say no, salary is low, but that's definitely not the main point of taking up the offer, it was the experience that I can gain working with him, it was once in a lifetime offer at this point of time. Once all concerns of transportation, time, studies, etc. I agreed to the position offered, and will be travelling to Kelantan coming Thursday. Am excited with all the uncertainties and expectations that I have, and what's there waiting for me.

Am sorry to those who upset due to my last minute notice of leaving, but hey, It's not that I'll not be back in KL for a longgggggggggg time. I'll be back every week for my Thursday class =)

Am anticipating the challenge ahead.

Something to "eight" about, I just don't understand why some people are just...so "eight". Being "eight" is not wrong, but if you hurt someone else by being "eight", then it's something VERY wrong!!!I can't care much about that person or whoever that's involved, I do pity them though, for knowing the wrong truth, and doing something that's a waste of time (though they might not think so). C'mon, there's more things that's important to do in life, than hurting others...

Last for an update, my bestie, milkmilk, will be heading overseas to continue her studies. She's been a great friend to me every now and then. I'm grateful by having her around, and am sad as she's leaving, oh well, people do leave some day, and I'll meet her soon enough, where everyone grew, won't talk much about you here...

Just to say, all the best, be safe, and see you soon...^^

C'est la vie

It's been two months since I last blog, reason? Just don't feel like blogging Reason for blogging now? Coz I feel like bloggin lor~ =p

Things happened in this two months, it's quite a hectic process I must say, though I went through it and have grown again, learning and gaining new knowledge on reality. Though, in return, I traded off with something essential. But I guess, it's worth it when the results are fruitful and satisfying.

As what other people said, "Things happened for a reason", so I assume, what has happened, happened because I would be able to grow in a fast pace, though it was in a not-so-nice manner.

CEO of MAS Idris Jala once said, "There's only a part of your life where you have control on, while the others happened because of something/someone else, thus just try your best, and pray for the best for what you are unable to control - Divine Intervention".

I don't take unnecessary risk, I've went out way beyond my comfort zone, things could be done if and only if all elements are in good position and quality guarenteed, discarding all my worries by then. Though, the opposite is what I had, thus termination was the only decision before destruction occurs halfway through. I believe that's the wisest thing to do regardless of what other people would judge.

Sometimes, I just don't understand why some people act like they are so true about themselves. "Overconfidence" is the word to describe them. Whatever they do, or say, is always right when they confirm is right themselves, how funny is that when the person they are judging said that it's wrong when they insisted on it (assuming that the person is not lying that is)? Childish as it is, when they talk, they are so manly, yet at the back, they are just spoilt child doing brainless and useless acts, which only kids do that in the olden days.

Though, I'm not even a bit affected by the consequence it brought, I just pity how they live life, GET A LIFE!

LIFE sucks sometimes, yet it can be the opposite. Thanks to things that happened for whatever reason, I get to know things, and get to know great people, and even better, get wonderful things done!Whatever it is, the feeling is beyond describable for me...

C'est la vie

p/s: This is a very random post that I don't care about the flow, so just ignore if you don' t know what am I talking about.

Omelette anyone?

What's more than a perfect meal of soft, sweet,yummylicious omelette for breakfast?!!!

My friends who ate my home-made mushroom omelette kept asking me how did I actually cook it that it was really delicious!!! 

(They might be exaggerating though...)

So, since I had the time, I've made a short how-to tutorial to make this delicious breakfast.

(WARNING: If this recipe was bad for you, it's definitely not my fault =p)

1st step: Prepare the ingredients

Eggs; Mushrooms (thinly sliced); Fresh Milk; Oil

Step 2: Beat the eggs together + fresh milk gently

(avoid beating it until there's foam)

Heat up the oil in a non-stick pan, then add in the mixture of eggs + fresh milk. 

Immediately arrange the mushroom slices onto the surface of the mixture when the mixture is still in liquid form.

Then let it cook, just make sure your pan is not too hot, let it cook slowly, be patience...

After around 4-5 minutes, slowly use a spoon pick the corners of the egg and fold it into half.

Turn it twice within one minute, and it's ready to be served!!!

Serve with tomato, chilli or tartar sauce...

See the layers of texture? yummy.....

-BREAKFAST IS SERVED-

品冠 - 重来

Reommending an old song to my readers

品冠 - 重来 (Repeat)

曾经的你是我全部

在朋友面前常爱提起的名字

最喜欢你笑的样子

彷佛一个单纯快乐的孩子

如今一切历历在目

你已成为我伤心的往事

那段有你有梦的日子

我真的很想可以再开始

虽然过去都已飘逝

我仍期待重来一次

好好将所有感觉从头收拾

再回到我和你的昨日

我真的很想让我和你

回到过去重新再来再爱一次

我会在乎我们的故事

改写我们的历史

为你轻轻擦去眼角的泪珠

真的很想让我和你

回到过去重新再来再爱一次

我会珍惜我们的最初

不想看你为我哭

让你陪孤独说不尽心事

What's the possibility?

I'm still waiting for miracles to happen

...

"Life is short,

Appreciate what you have,

Be wise in making a decision,

For you will not know,

when you make a wrong one,

And lose something or someone

 that is important to you...

For regret, will not help"

A Ring I Found...

I was amazed with what I found in a small candy box the other day when I was re-organizing my small collection cupboard – my 1^st ex’s couple ring! I didn’t know I kept it this long, and it was still un-oxidized and shiny! Seeing the design of two hearts being pierced by an arrow, it made me recall some memories of her…

Nah I’m not going to talk about her, sorry to spoil your curiosity if I created some =p.

What does a pair of rings mean for a couple?

For those who are attached, had you bought a ring for your partner? If not, why?

Individual differences brought about the various viewpoints to this:

...As a symbol of being bind (i.e. a wedding ring) or “property” of the one who wore the ring for the other.

Some people are afraid of being “owned” by someone and lost his/her freedom, thus rings is a taboo for them.

Though some others do not mind being tied to someone when they are so blinded by love…

...As a symbol of commitment for both partners.

Commitment? How many of you are actually ready for it? There are people who are not ready to sacrifice much and commit in a relationship, especially those that are categorized as “ludus” – love as a game. If such people bought a ring for you, it’s just that they have too much money not knowing where to spend (or maybe not?)

For those that are ready to commit to their partner, a ring represents eternity, a symbol of hope and future for them.

...As a symbol representation for both partners being together.

Some people just like their relationship to go unnoticed a.k.a low profile…why? It might be to stop people from asking annoying and irritating questions repeatedly such as “when did you two came together?” or “hey, are you sure he’s the one?” C’mon, mind your own business people! Love is about both person loving each other and being together, who are the others to interfere in it?!

Some people are proud of their relationship (proud as in happy) that they would like to share their happiness with the whole world. Thus what’s the best way to portray such love, other than a pair of rings attached on both lovers’ fingers! It represents them, two in one (what a bad illustration I know)

Are these any of the reasons that you attached/refrain from attaching a ring to your partner’s finger? What’s yours?

"Love is but a way of life,

It gives hope, joy, and care,

Yet it also hurts.

Care no to those that interfere,

For love are between two strangers,

Where they meet at one point in life,

To share, to give, and to take…

For eternity…"

BY2 - 我知道

Reommending a new song to my readers

BY2 - 我知道 (I know)

从来没想过 

不能再和你牵手 

委屈时候 

没有你陪着我心痛 

一切是我太过娇纵 

以为你会懂 

一直忘了说 

我有多感动 

我知道你还是爱着我 

虽然 

分开的理由 

我们都已接受 

你知道我会有多难过 

所以 

即使在最后 

还微笑着要我加油 

我知道你还放不下我 

才会 

在离开时闭着眼 

没有回头 

答应你我会好好过 

不让这些眼泪 

白流

The song tells the story of a couple who love each other, but never they thought that they will never hold each other's hand anymore. Which then they learnt the importance of each other's existence after accepting the reason of seperation.

This is a new song by BY2 from their 2nd released album. I'm not fond of their song, but my friend recommended me, and so I found that the lyrics coincidently reflect my feelings and emotions at this very moment, thus I would like to dedicate this song to all my readers too, and to send the message of appreciation for your love ones [romantic relationship] no matter what happen...as you won't know what will happen at the very next second.

Secrets to a Simplistic Life

Ok, so the secret in leading a simplistic life is to...........live a simple life!!!

*I know readers might want to hit me with a baseball bat or whatever weapon of opportunities*

Let me be more specific,

There are lots of ways to live a simple life, and there are alot of people who actualy know about the various methods, but they are so caught up with complicated stuff in life, which sometimes, they just have no choice but to do it such way, that they eventually forget the meaning of the word - Simple.

What's the most simplistic way of defining simple?

Simple = Not complicated (ncbf, 2009)

*okok don't punch me* It's TRUE, as long as something is complicated, then you know that you're not doing something in a simple way. Let me provide you readers with some simple "secrets" to make your life simpler, so that you would not see and feel so much pimples on your face, or eyebags under your eyes, or even wrinkles and white hair - signs of AGING!!!

There are alot of sites that provide the same tips, but I'm going to filter some of them that are not practical in reality (e.g. resign from something you're not passionate about [where comes the money if you do not work in such economic crisis?])

1. Stop trying to be perfect as long as you know how to improve (no comment for perfectionists)

2. Clean out your collections (i.e. books, cds, dvds, etc.) and keep only the items you love.

3. Clean your purse/wallet

4. Create a filing system that you can stick to

5. Set one good goal, and go achieve it

6. As long as you are able to finish a task by deadline, you do not need to follow a fixed schedule if you do not want to.

7. Try your best not to multitask

8. Constantly recall positive memories

9. When you are not in a positive mood, express it (in your private space lar...) or eat something sweet (i.e. candy, chocolate, etc.)

8. And the most of all, BE YOURSELF, BE TRUE TO YOUR HEART whenever you have the chance!!!It's the least you can do to reward youself.

This is my recomendation of living a simple life, it might be complicated for someone else. However, it's worth a try, you won't die trying anyway  =p

Dedicating a song to all my readers out there who's living a simple and happy life, and for those who are still trying, all the best!!!

Disney - True To Your Heart (Mulan)

Mask | Reality

A mask is a subjective, virtual tool that are used by almost everyone in this world, as a shield, an armor, sometimes, even a weapon, to protect them selves from the cruel world of reality.

What do we know about reality? It realy depends on how we perceive it, it can be beneficial, yet, always a coin is 2 sided. If reality is not perceived negatively, then why a "mask" existed in the 1st place?

For instance, let's take a situation from the aspect of romance. 

Situation: You are going after someone, yet that someone rejected you for few reasons. Be it, you're too ugly, or you're just not the right one for him/her. You were devastated (i.e. if you realy love that person that is). Now let's see what two perspective the person can take to change his/her life

Optimistic about reality: "Maybe she's not the right one for me...; I'm not right up to her expectations yet, I'll do better next time..."

Consequence: The person might eventually learn from the lesson and be a better person in the future OR move on with his/her life...

Pessimistic about reality: "Reality is cruel, why does he/she wanting to be with me, am I too ugly? stupid? idiotic? I feel like I'm the worse person in the world to exist, being in this world is a waste..."

Consequence: Drop in self-esteem, self-perception, lost of identity...etc. Some even commit suicide!!!

See the big difference in consequences between a person who perceive reality positively and another one perceiving it negatively? Understand why people wear masks now? Reality sucks, but yet it is a useful asset in your life, if you know the way of manipulating it to your own use, and to use the right method to do it (i.e. methods that does not hurt yourself - MASK).

Flash back to two years ago when "I welcomed myself into reality", or rather, reality sucked me in, where...events and events, negative ones of majority, taught me what reality is about, at least a small part of it. The learning process is a pain-in-the-ass I must say, yet it prepared me to face my future, where things can be much much worse then what I'm facing now.

Friends taught me a lot, you and you and you changed me a lot too, all of you helped me face reality. Don't get the wrong meaning, I'm not blaming any of you for anything, nor being sarcastic. What I want to say is that, wearing a mask is tiring I know, again, it's a sacrifice to make if me or anyone of you reading this would like to protect yourself rather than stripped naked and being vulnerable to anything in this world,unless there are any other ways you found which is better than putting on a fake self, DO TELL ME!!!Sharing is Caring =p

But what I think most important is, a person who wears a mask, must try to find some people or even only an individual who you can totally shed off your mask and be your true self, where you can take a break from the heavy weight of the mask. And this will be the person you trust most, love most, and would like to share your story with him/her the most.

As for me, I've found such person where I can be myself. On the other hand, I'm trying hard to be such person for someone too, hopefully one day, I'll be the one taking down her mask, for her to take a break from reality, and for her to be your true self. 

I rather accept failure than giving up on you, you and you, why should I even think of it, when my heart never did so...

"Reality is just a scene, a situation.

No matter what changes it brings,

It is you who is in control of such changes,

by taking charge of its process..."

Note: No names will be disclosed, if anybody is wondering who are those "you/your, etc", sorry but I will not satisfy your curiosity.

Simply Simplitiscally Simple

On the 23rd of April, 2009,

Simply Simplitiscally Simple was born,

A blog created to share

A blog created to remind

A blog created to inspire

A blog created to express

Both myself, and the readers who will be reading it.

Simplemente Vida - Simply...Life

Simplemente Acontecimiento - Simply...Event

Simplemente Memorias - Simply...Memories

Simplemente Vacaciones - Simply...Trips

Simplemente Alimento - Simply...Food

Simplemente Música - Simply...Music

Will be the main 6 categorization tags in this blog

Where I will share my life experiences with those who adore me,

Where I will tell the story of every significant events happening around me,

Recalling from antique memories to the recent ones,

Where trips with cliques to anywhere were treasured,

To the food that I loved,

And the music that inspired and motivated me every now and then...

"A blog named after a principle in my life,

Where life is complicated in reality,

Where reality should be simplified,

To live a satisfiying and joyous life,

To cherish every moment of time..."